I feel glad because something unpleasant has stopped. I feel as though the pressure is off. I'm sick and tired of acting like I'm fine. I realized that I was actually very tired of the mess I didn't even start. It may not be a physical hurt but an emotional one. If I could only say what I feel, maybe it would lessen the heaviness in my heart. She consistently makes me feel like I'm not worth anything. She doesn't realize how horrible she makes me feel...
I don't know if I'm just being sensitive. I didn’t stand up for myself until I realized that my self-esteem depended on me and not on her. She might have broken it but it was up to me to fix it. I don’t try to prove my worth anymore. I don’t have to, because I know my worth. I am simply deciding that I MATTER and I am not going to put up with the way that she treat me anymore. No matter how hard or strong I claim to be, the actions of others can sometimes hurt me...
I may try to tough it out and will pretend the words of others don’t effect me but the truth of the matter is, sometimes I do!! But it’s over now. A burden has been lifted off my shoulders. I feel relieved. I pray Allah give me renewed strength to carry on with my journey...
